I still don't understand why life has been this way. He goes in and out of my mind, alllll the time. I wish it wasn't like this, that'd there'd be no heartache of knowing he's not mine anymore, that any other girl can get her dirty hands on him, and I can do nothing about it. Why? Because he's not mine.
I guess, I really like us the way we are now, but it makes me sad that I actually started opening my heart to someone else, it had been over a year and something months that I hadn't shared myself to another soul. And the one time I do, it all crashes down on me. I'm pretty bummed on it, I suppose I already knew it was going to turn out like this, but I didn't know it was going to crash and burn all over my heart.
Now, I'm going back to my old ways. Lock up for the long, cold winter of love, and await my own arrival.
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Reluctantly Im taking a leap into the unknown, with one foot and one foot out still weary of being cautious. Sweet and tenderly you continue...
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Have a good one, Eligh! And congrats, Jessica! Baby on zee way ;) So, today was heaps nice, I finally got the monkey off my back. It felt gr...