10.30.2010
10.26.2010
10.23.2010
double vision 3OH!3
I'm thinking maybe, I can't have relationships.
'Cause lately, they're not making any sense
'Cause lately, they're not making any sense
10.16.2010
[Never again, bcos it would be pointless] amen mj
* i will never date long-distance again
* i will never date a boy who hasn't planned/hoped for a family of [our :] own
* i will never date a man who is uncomfortable with my L for G-d
* i will never date a man who isn't 10000% supportive/encouraging of my L/service toward/for G-d
* i will never date a man who doesn't write me letters
* i will never date a man who doesn't read my writing, or want to everyday
* i will never date a man who doesn't make me laugh
* i will never date a man who doesn't know what he stands for, what he believes in, or who he is
* i will never date a man who doesn't love and look out for the underdog, the awkward friend, the humble, the lowly, the embarrassed/embarrassing
* i will never date a man i can't be goofy with, i can't tease, i can't foolishly gush about G-d with
* i will never date a man who doesn't LOVE to dance
* i will never date a man who is okay with being apart from me most of the time
* i will never date a man who is okay with putting the people closest to him on hold, but drops anything for people who don't know his middle name, his hopes and dreams, or his fears and insecurities
* i will never date a man who doesn't feed off the Word, or revel in its mysteries
* i will never date a man who bores me
* i will never date a man with double standards
* i will never date a man without convictions
* i will never date a man who thinks that there is a difference between being a 'kid' and being a 'grown-up' and chooses to identify with kid. [versus belief that there are just people who take their living seriously and try to live intentionally and caringly, and people who do not]
* i will never date a man i am more mature than
* i will never date a man who needs a scene or a somebody to have a good time
* i will never date a man who doesn't like to dress up [like for theme parties :]
* i will never date a man i have to censor myself around
* i will never date a man who doesn't adore my family and want to know them more and be their brother/son/grandson/cousin
* i will never date a man who doesn't crave philosophical exchanges
* i will never date a man who doesn't love long rambles and local exploration
* i will never date a man who doesn't want to take trips with me
* i will never date a man who doesn't think about the best way to raise a family
* i will never date a man who hasn't thought about how to be a good dad, husband, household manager, provider
* i will never date a guy who doesn't sing outloud at worship just because he likes to, because he knows and Ls G-d
* i will never date a man who doesn't continually think about/seek how to do G-d's will with the money, time, talent, etc. he's been given on this earth
* i will never be with a man who doesn't 10000% adore/fear G-d and want to give his life to/for Him daily daily daily [not that we won't all have our down days, or confusing bouts, but at the end of the day, trust and submission]
* i will never date again.
i only want to not date. for a long time. just be in this season of singleness and sisterhood. then someday, when the time is right... meet someone who is a friend. and be friends with them. and be better friends with them. then be really good friends with them. then know them really well to the point of knowing when to pick them up when they're down, or leave them alone when they're grumpy, or make fun of them when they're being stubborn, or give them a hug when they're deeply sad... and knowing what they think. and seeing how they live. and trusting what they believe. and respecting it all. and they respect me. and we see eye to eye on almost everything. and we learn to work through conflict well. and we submit to G-d first and foremost. and we have similar hopes and dreams and future forecast :] yah, yah. i know you can't know everything beforehand. i know you can't plan for all the tiny and giant strifes we call life. but i want to be with a man who is on the same wave-length... who doesn't look at me like i'm a freak for thinking about how to raise my unborn children... or for being 100% sure about G-d! i'm tired of not being me because someone else might get uncomfortable. i can't compromise her anymore. she's got her ugly parts, for sure. her smallness, weakness, hard knots, meanness. but perla's the only me i can be. by G-d's grace, i hope i get a little bit better... but He did make me me, and that's who i actually want and like to be :]
* i will never date a boy who hasn't planned/hoped for a family of [our :] own
* i will never date a man who is uncomfortable with my L for G-d
* i will never date a man who isn't 10000% supportive/encouraging of my L/service toward/for G-d
* i will never date a man who doesn't write me letters
* i will never date a man who doesn't read my writing, or want to everyday
* i will never date a man who doesn't make me laugh
* i will never date a man who doesn't know what he stands for, what he believes in, or who he is
* i will never date a man who doesn't love and look out for the underdog, the awkward friend, the humble, the lowly, the embarrassed/embarrassing
* i will never date a man i can't be goofy with, i can't tease, i can't foolishly gush about G-d with
* i will never date a man who doesn't LOVE to dance
* i will never date a man who is okay with being apart from me most of the time
* i will never date a man who is okay with putting the people closest to him on hold, but drops anything for people who don't know his middle name, his hopes and dreams, or his fears and insecurities
* i will never date a man who doesn't feed off the Word, or revel in its mysteries
* i will never date a man who bores me
* i will never date a man with double standards
* i will never date a man without convictions
* i will never date a man who thinks that there is a difference between being a 'kid' and being a 'grown-up' and chooses to identify with kid. [versus belief that there are just people who take their living seriously and try to live intentionally and caringly, and people who do not]
* i will never date a man i am more mature than
* i will never date a man who needs a scene or a somebody to have a good time
* i will never date a man who doesn't like to dress up [like for theme parties :]
* i will never date a man i have to censor myself around
* i will never date a man who doesn't adore my family and want to know them more and be their brother/son/grandson/cousin
* i will never date a man who doesn't crave philosophical exchanges
* i will never date a man who doesn't love long rambles and local exploration
* i will never date a man who doesn't want to take trips with me
* i will never date a man who doesn't think about the best way to raise a family
* i will never date a man who hasn't thought about how to be a good dad, husband, household manager, provider
* i will never date a guy who doesn't sing outloud at worship just because he likes to, because he knows and Ls G-d
* i will never date a man who doesn't continually think about/seek how to do G-d's will with the money, time, talent, etc. he's been given on this earth
* i will never be with a man who doesn't 10000% adore/fear G-d and want to give his life to/for Him daily daily daily [not that we won't all have our down days, or confusing bouts, but at the end of the day, trust and submission]
* i will never date again.
i only want to not date. for a long time. just be in this season of singleness and sisterhood. then someday, when the time is right... meet someone who is a friend. and be friends with them. and be better friends with them. then be really good friends with them. then know them really well to the point of knowing when to pick them up when they're down, or leave them alone when they're grumpy, or make fun of them when they're being stubborn, or give them a hug when they're deeply sad... and knowing what they think. and seeing how they live. and trusting what they believe. and respecting it all. and they respect me. and we see eye to eye on almost everything. and we learn to work through conflict well. and we submit to G-d first and foremost. and we have similar hopes and dreams and future forecast :] yah, yah. i know you can't know everything beforehand. i know you can't plan for all the tiny and giant strifes we call life. but i want to be with a man who is on the same wave-length... who doesn't look at me like i'm a freak for thinking about how to raise my unborn children... or for being 100% sure about G-d! i'm tired of not being me because someone else might get uncomfortable. i can't compromise her anymore. she's got her ugly parts, for sure. her smallness, weakness, hard knots, meanness. but perla's the only me i can be. by G-d's grace, i hope i get a little bit better... but He did make me me, and that's who i actually want and like to be :]
10.15.2010
CONSTRUCTION OF AN EMANCIPATOR
Now at the end of everyday I lie awake at night and wait
To feel the wires of my brain get cut and quietly rearranged
And Hear my beaten heart exclaim, 'Still, I refuse to let her go.'"
La Dispute - Damaged Goods
To feel the wires of my brain get cut and quietly rearranged
And Hear my beaten heart exclaim, 'Still, I refuse to let her go.'"
La Dispute - Damaged Goods
10.13.2010
10.11.2010
10.07.2010
mj jacobs
[ i mean, if i were beautiful, strong, an expert archer and could float from tree to tree ]
also, non-dater foreves.
also, non-dater foreves.
10.04.2010
Employers
* Robber's of my Thoughts
International Woman of Leisure
Los Angeles, California, United States
Maintaing a level of Fancy-Ness, Crossing International boarders, Fashionably Challenged and Preaching to The Masses, drinking your booze, talking non-sense, too young to make these decisions, all the while feeling like my body no longer belongs to me... I have no clue how to explain what I do.. If infact, I do anything at all.
* Robber's of my Thoughts
International Woman of Leisure
Los Angeles, California, United States
Maintaing a level of Fancy-Ness, Crossing International boarders, Fashionably Challenged and Preaching to The Masses, drinking your booze, talking non-sense, too young to make these decisions, all the while feeling like my body no longer belongs to me... I have no clue how to explain what I do.. If infact, I do anything at all.
10.03.2010
10.02.2010
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