Heartache city

Standing in this quad, next to a few hundred students, each face a different one, none can see it in my face. Im torn, im aching. So strongly its felt within me, and they dont see it, they cant tell the turmoil thats been tormenting inside my chest. The way it pounds at me, the way it wakes me up at night- "im here. Feel me. Ive been here, louder now than ever." Do you run or do you take it?

Tu

Philophobia:
No one warned me.
Yet again, i shouldve seen why no one was near. I approached with caution, and got allured into your web.

en el baul de tu corazon

Idiota sin lagrimas,
das lastima en el corazon,
ardes en los huecos que un dia hubo sol,
siento tu sal en mi boca,
al respirar me ahogo,
te dejo,
quisiera ahorcarte de regreso,
arrancarte tus cadenas,
traerte hacia mi,
ayudarte a respirar,

pero no hay suficiente aire,
yo este dolor no lo puedo combatir,
asi es que aqui te dejo,
a la entrada en rodillas,
con una ultima caricia,
y te desarreglo tu cabello una vez mas,
como las otras miles veces que las odiabas,
risos rojos y ojos de dolor,
en veces verdes,
y en veces huecos,
ya no te siento mas.

defeat.

there's solace in the music, there's solace in your kitchen. when you're cooking me dinner, and i watch you, you dance, you love, you are.
it took watching Gilmore Girls to realize it
how painful it will be.
how awful it will feel.
how the yearning may never become a stranger
it will be a friend before it ever becomes a memory.
how the hurting can leave you in a cave and leave you in a daze.
to wallow.
to hurt.
to sink in defeat.

it will linger, it will swallow me whole.

Life is at its sweetest when you shut the fuck up. Silently intertwined from ankles to hips, from arms to lips. Spread out in front of your tv in the dark. Pouring salt onto wounds that havent healed without deliberate delivery. Tell me again how this silence has peacefully kept you going. Tell me again how you can hear a creaking sound as i approach. But tell me one more time-
how the sound of my voice,
resounds every fucking night right as your head hits your pillow.