ghost-like lover

your smell lingers on my skin

i cant stand the thought of seeing you with someone else, and it kills me to know that your heart no longer belongs with mine

i opened my eyes and i finally saw what i had been blinding myself from,

i had already started, i loved.

i loved you with my whole cold heart

take one last glance at me; im swimming with the wind.



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*when i met you, trailing after you and austin, speaking to you on the fone, and you looked around and couldnt see me

*sitting down at the fair waiting for the aladdin show to begin, music's playing and i can hear the verve's 'bittersweet symphony' playing

*coachella fest

*when you chased me with a handful of in n out shake smeared on your hand

*when you layed down with me at the pd park and we just ..layed there staring up at the trees and listened to the birds sing

*the first time you kissed me ;) we were in your car and i was laying down on your lap and we were playing around and you finally kissed me and right after you said 'ive been trying to do that for so long' and i call it my 'spiderman kiss' aha

*when we sat on the grass by some mushrooms in front of mathis brothers

*in front of metro 8

*la quinta arts festival

*the day i went to your house

*when we hung out at 3am when i snuck out of cristina's house

*that one time we watched some people fight in the drive thru at jack in the box

*when rex emily you and i hung out

*patrick and zach's house

*when we slept at the golf course

*adam's park

*the first time i hung out with you at a park, the day your mom got her braces off