wahh

you've played your heart out. you cant make someone want you

this was easier when i didnt care for anyone
im literally broken. i thought i was done, and i didnt think it would hurt me as much as it did in the beginning, but its almost close. maybe this time i'll stop eating comepletely and i'll end up disappearing

but i guess this is good, things wouldnt have gotten better bcos he ignores me either way, he didnt even do anything to at least try to get back with me or fix things or anything. i tried to fix the mess i started, but he wouldnt let me, so he blames this on me. i guess its part of life..obviously. i dont care if i ever see him or talk to him again, i just want to feel good again. i hate the way he's just a guy, the way any guy would act, say, think, or do, he's the same. i hate feeling the same way everyday, its been two months and i still feel shitty.