It's not like I'm a slut
Or that I really like to fuck
I just want every boy I see
To walk away with part of me
Until there's nothing left to hold
Until there's nothing left to hate
I appreciate your help
But even you can't save me from myself

Am i being selfish while i lead someone closer to me? most definitely. evil? yes.
sometimes i feel bad bcos i know im gonna be hurting someone in the end, and i know it wont be me. my intentions are completely wrong, i can tell bcos my heart doesnt agree. but if it helps make me forget, then that's what it'll take. one by one, closer to defeat. this is where i stop caring, bcos everything already began to flee. out of sight, out of mind. im weak, but now i remember why i do this....

Until there's nothing left to love
Until there's nothing left to say