6.08.2009

it's a helluva start

being able to recognize what makes you happy. ive realized that i've been storing all this love in the wrong place. its gonna have to die. papa always said to keep in mind, love is always given and never returned, be wise with how you use it. all this lost time, i could have been placing it somewhere where immortal love will never leave the heart, where i will forever feel its touch. im human, and i know you understand, i was only looking for a physical type of love. i'm sorry for becoming a doubtful stranger in such short notice, i came and went without a struggle, i let you slip right on by, and just let you go. i guess i was only trying to fill the void you left. i see now, that, i am nothing without you, and it took me so long to be apart from you to realize that. i am very much appreciative for what you've made me go through, and throughout all this, you brought me a gift right along it all.
thank you