Marilyn Manson

I guess I shouldn't blame anyone or let anyone's judgement change my mind. I can't help but keep this in my head. I've never been so heartbroken in my life. Why does it feel like this? Fuck everything you are, you've made me hate everything I've ever "tried" to live for, but why am I letting you be the reason for it? If anything I should always blame myself. I can't say that maybe if I would've tried harder to reel you into my heart everything would be peachy keen, bcos it wouldnt've. I want you to hold me, I want to feel you, I want everything to be perfect. Why can't I have you like I had you last year? You and I were one. Does this happen to all? I feel like we're breaking up, I thought you'd never leave me, and you tell me that you won't, but your words don't reassure me of any of that. 'There's a time for everything' yadda yadda yadda boo hoo hoo, you make me want to chew myself up and spit myself back out and make sure my pieces never get back together. Why? Could it be the enemy trying to take over again? I don't fucking know, put me back together again! You promised me the riches of the world, where are you!?! Show me that you love me, Hug me with your prescence, tell me everything's okay, help cease the crying. Its never been this bad before, please! Please, please, please! I can't do this anymore.