pleasing the bones

havent you heard? im stuck on a verse. im stuck on a boy who fills me with joy. i knew i was wrong to jump state on into this picture so pretty but he is so pretty to me.
i hate that i cant be as strong as i used to. i cry like a little girl, and i give away my heart unconditionally to those who hardly think about me in return.
i wish we could open our eyes, to see in all directions at the same time.what a beautiful view, if you were never aware of what was around you,and it is true what you said, that I live like a hermit in my own head,but when the sun shines again, i’ll pull the curtains and blinds to let the light in.distress drips into your heart through a pinhole, just like a faucet that leaks and there is comfort in the sound. but while you debate half empty or half full,it slowly rises, your love is gonna drown.
"I like too many things and get all confused and hung-up running from one falling star to another till i drop. This is the night, what it does to you. I had nothing to offer anybody except my own confusion."-J.Kerouac
....if you live to be a hundred years old i want to live to be a hundred minus a day because i never want to be without you.