she's totally right. i cant live in it, if it's something i dont believe in.
i.e. an atheist yells out, "Thank God, I ate that peach! It was delicious.."
Same thing, right? yess. I hope that maybe Samuel can teach me to love, I mean, God has taught me to have faith, and to adore Him and praise Him, and above all, to love Him. Why can't i learn to let love in in any other way? Or to learn to love another being? Because I won't let myself fall into it. I have a mind-set of being strong, i suppose i could say. I don't want to be weakened like a little girl, although i pretty much already am. But, i mean, i wont let my emotions be fully controlled by a guy who will eventually become extinct in my future. nawwmean? ugh, i've got some issues. i need to loosen up& let go for once.
