...To Cry

(I wrote this last year, after witnessing and being part of another girl's broken heart)

Because its the way its supposed to feel, when he leaves you, and you breakdown, because he was your everything, or at least its how you felt. and when he left you, you felt like everything you ever were, everything you had, everything you had become, was ripped completely apart from your being. i came to thinking a deep thought, i cant express it, but i can understand it in my mind and feel the way i feel about it in my heart. but its all part of God's magnificent plan. yeah, i know, everyone tells you that, no? but i actually understand it now, or at least i FEEL, like i do.
in order to get to the point to be wedded to your "soul mate" you need to go through the candidates in your path. you'll find that right person, after you've seen heartache, fear, and the heart thats blossomed in your soul. it takes a lifetime for a person to truly recognize that they've found their perfect someone, some foolish people can go on about saying they'll marry their current loved one, and not even knowing what lies behind those bubbly eyes, and into those wonderful respiratory lungs, in and out through the heart and skull of the body resting next to theirs.
when you find the one you're meant to be with for the rest of your life, you'll know right away from the way he speaks, walks, inhales the sunlight, and draws into his imagination. i might be young, and not know what love is, but i've gone through a hell of alot of heartache, and its made me feel at my worst, up to the point where i couldnt eat, and lost a tad bit of weight. i couldnt look at food, because i felt so empty and couldnt possibly let anything in, without regaining what i had just lost. no boy ever made me cry, 'cept for one...
...he was a gosh darn special one, and i let him slip...no, i didnt, he just wasnt for me, and probably isnt for me now, but maybe he'll be the right one for me someday, or maybe not.
but throughout all the crummy feelings that its made me feel, i've realized that its like a play. you act out the part, and then you're done. right? naw, its nothing like that, but on this stage, i've learned to fly, learned to sing, and learned to cry.
its God's plan called Life?
...me