freddy.

i dont hold a grudge towards mom for leaving my dad and missing out on having a dad while growing up. dont use that as an excuse to hold a grudge towards someone for things you think you missed out on, just because other people grew up with things you didnt, just means you had things you were meant to have.

lemonade

drown me in you

but all these chocolate covered dreams, they all drown me in you. traveling your blood stream, through and through, labeling your anatomy becoming part of me. intwined in your seams, i leave my kisses, i leave a piece of me. to let you find me, for when i have to leave. youre a wonderful creature and im glad.

Septembers, Novembers

what had brought the spark, had menacingly pulled it apart in the most intricate fashion that it was almost impossible to forget the way the loss had become a feeling of beauty in a wrinkle of time. if i could turn back time, i'd gladly turn down the offer. ive realized that the feeling that i'd felt wouldnt feel the same, it could only be felt once... that was its true beauty. it was unrepeatable, at least in this life time. until the next, having an infatuation to the drive will just be, just that.

A

Although it takes much longer for this to process to get it's point across, mostly bcos i can't show too much. wont show too much. my skin keeps changing, and it keeps getting thinner. deeper. i'd like to be able to attain and voice out the in's and out's that linger in my cardiac system but it doesnt seem to budge.

yes love love

attachment

you will never succeed in convincing me, your convalescence is hypocrytical. i am assertively opinionated. I feel more and more disposed in the fullest sense of the word to follow my own direction if thats what ive really asked for. I dont think i’ll ever believe anything is totally pure.

Attachment only succeeds in ripping a person apart. keep in mind that nothing lasts forever, the ones that left you, were never worth it to begin with.